Making Goodness Fashionable...

I am much alive. Just a little lazy that's all. I know its been since April that I have actually updated this thing but better late then never? Well a lot has happened you could say since April until now, September. I turned sweet sixteen, finished grade 10, got in a car accident ( I was driving too) went to creationfest, attended the most beautiful wedding, went to suicide creek for the first time, and quit football and joined back up again.

Sixteen isn't that great. A lot of kids think that its a big deal until the date gets closer and closer. Yeah you can get you license but I don't even think driving is that great. I've found that since I've turned sixteen nothing has changed at all except maybe my acne and hair length. Most everyone who reads this thing (which I expect is no one at the moment since I haven't updated in forever) knows that I struggle with depression. I have had the choice of counseling brought up to me lately and also medication. Now I didn't want to do either but I guess if I had to choose one it would be counseling. I don't like the whole aspect of feeling different because of a substance I had consumed, and besides, I'm only sixteen! So I have mildly considered the counseling part but still have doubts and aren't too sure about it yet. School starts in a week and as all of my friends don't have to go back to school, I'm going to be a loner again this year in the school scene. Did I mention I hate being sixteen?

This summer I spent a lot of time with people older then me. I have this problem with kids my own age. I usually think that they are immature, have nothing better to do then drink, or just don't understand where I'm coming from. I like being the youngest in groups. It happens so often that people forget my age and treat me like an adult. Every once in a while I snap back into reality (like having to start school on Tuesday) but I try and keep myself in mature crowds. I prefer having biblical discussions with people older then me as well. Even though I'm younger I feel like I can connect better on a spiritual level. Of course I love answering 'God' questions with kids from my class too don't get me wrong, but like I said, I simply just enjoy being treated like an adult.

I got to know Russ Klassen really well this summer which has pretty much been my highlight. I found a person who shares a lot of interests as me and even though we have an 8 year age gap, he treats me like a friend. I don't have many people I can call my friends... But that can be for another blog. I was privileged enough to be apart of the invites to his wedding and I must say that it was the most gorgeous wedding I had ever been to in my life. Joy and Russ are a perfect match for each other and I couldn't be more happy for them. I've witnessed how stressful planning a wedding can be. There is so much to do from the guests, invitations, location, catorers, food, decorations,the photographer, the wedding dress, enough seating, who will be witting with who, the punch, the favors, flowers, and the list goes on and on and on...
in the end two people are wed in holy matrimony...But as you can see there is a price with there 'big day.' oh well.

I know that from the moment you guys read the first paragraph you have all been dying to hear about my car accident! It was actually pretty scary. Really scary. Long story short this girl wasn't paying attention and turned in front of me. Both cars got totaled, my mom hit the dashboard, it was the others girls fault, and I was completely fine and went to creationfest the next day.


creationfest was pretty awesome. Hot, but awesome. I had a real struggle with worship though. I was struggling with my depression and went into the whole thing with a heavy heart, and also came back with one. I know that kind of defeated the purpose of the whole event but I could see that coming from a mile away. I still kick myself for it but tried my best not to ruin everyone else's trip with my crap. There was some pluses to the trip though. Every night sleeping under the stars was phenomenal. That is the one place where I can always see God's beauty and how great and powerful He really is. On the last couple nights we froze to death though which wasn't cool. Apparently it had never been that cold at night. Lucky us.

I just got home from a Starfield concert which was amazing as always. It was in Chilliwack and I had no clue how I was getting there until an hour before the show. I suggest that you all go and pick up they're new CD 'beauty in the broken' amazing lyrics and good sound too. I sound like I work for them or something. So there's my update. I know its quick and I know its not very grammatically correct but it was just a rant, make of it what you want. Leave a comment if you feel, or not. I can promise you I will be posting more regularly now but for tonight that is all.

I go in peace and pray that everyone reading this is blessed.
G'nite.